Throughout my episodes of schizoaffective disorder and even afterwards I have had an obsession with organization. During my first episode, I heard a professor speaking of a writer as “an organizational genius.” The idea really resonated with me. I started looking at the various ways that people organize their possessions. For instance, things might be arranged alphabetically or numerically. I finally settled on utility as an organizing principle. I wanted everything I owned to be organized in ways that would save me time, or make things easier to find, or create space. Although it may have been a good idea to get organized, I did it for all the wrong reasons.